Blog #4

 - Hanoi, a peaceful morning in April, I sat in front of Victory DVD shop, listening to "Early Recording" by Phung Khanh Linh -

It's been a while since I experienced this feeling, so I'm gonna burst my laptop out and write something for lyramoon1111. Watching tree leaves floating in the wind, people moving around on their bike, listening to "Trên Ô Cửa Máy Bay", time suddenly feel like it stopped, I'm alone, yet I find my true peace. I just wanna stay here for a little longer, where people don't fill me up with lectures, ideas....

We are so busy with our work, that we don't realize that nature is still happening, the wind still blowing, the music still playing, the flowers still blooming, sun is still shining

Nature is real right? The pressure out there is not... My mind keep getting tired with all of the invisible walls I set for myself, To Mai Trang said "người viết nhật kí không viết nhật kí vì họ kỉ luật, mà là họ sợ rằng khi không viết, một thứ quan trọng sẽ bay đi mất". She was right, I just wanna keep these experiences in my blogs forever, I wish I can keep those lyrics of music in my pockets. I just wish I can come to this place every morning, so I can sit down and watch nature moving, only then my mind can stop thinking...

But that cannot be true right? We got to keep working, create something, we have to find purpose in life... We have to study, experiment, fail, struggle. Because only when we keep pushing, keep boring, keep struggling then magic could happen... I know I got to do more right? There are miracles ahead, boredom, endless years of "seem" clueless experimenting will eventually bring true values, peace and purpose, so I can truly be satisfied.